Since starting my job, my life has felt like a maze of some sort. Things are changing–I’m transitioning–into what I don’t yet know.
I could try to explain myself to you but I don’t think you would be able to follow. It’s all very convoluted in my mind. One minute I’m loving my job and everything about it and the next I feel like I’m stuck at work, doing something just for the sake of money. And it’s true. I’m doing this job for money–but I do genuinely like it. Make sense? No? Didn’t think so. I don’t get it either.
One minute I feel young and like there are endless possibilities before me and the next I feel like I’m behind. I have so much to catch up on and yet I don’t know by what I’m measuring myself to. Some sort of idealized version of where I should be, in my mind at least. Am I ahead or am I behind? It changes from day to day, depending on what I’m thinking about.
So yeah, here’s to change, the thing that I welcome with open arms and the thing that challenges me immensely to think beyond what I once knew.